Olivia Sparrow

Miss A, 2011 - 2018

From 2011 to 2018 I was a (predominantly but not exclusively) online Pro Domme, performing my work as the femme character Miss A. Miss A was a survival strategy. Miss A created conceptual liaisons.

The Miss A Broadcast. A manifesto, of sorts. Documentation of a live performance given via webcam. Created for Millionaires Can Be Trans* / You Are So Brave* at Schwules Museum, Berlin. 2016. 13 minutes 19 seconds. The full video can be viewed, screened and exhibited on request.


Desperate For Attention performance documentation (credit: Ella Harrison), White Hotel, Salford, 2017.




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There is an isolation that comes with what I do for a living.
Stuck behind a screen. Stuck behind a thick layer of foundation. Stuck behind a performed idea of my sexuality. Isolation of the body and mind, even when interacting with others. Isolation leads to boredom. Boredom leads to creativity. Creativity leads to no boundaries. I once sold a password to a video for £110. I once sold a pair of dirty knickers for £150. This wasn’t meant as a gimmick. It was survival. It is not a fashion statement, it is not something that would fit easily on the pages of a glossy magazine. My character could never be together, luxury, natural. The disparity in our experiences is overwhelming. Sorry. Sorry. – I’m just getting this off my chest now because it’s over, for me. Not the job, that can’t be. But she. Her. The parading of it for gawpers. The gawpers who gawp at me in a different way to how they gawp at you. The disparity, again. There’s no and/or. CSM. DWP. Catwalk. Gully. God, the clichés are tired. As am I. Are your lunches as tiring as my 12 hour shifts? There is no theory here. No entitlement. Just learned behaviour, familial conditioning, survivalism. I’m sorry. I know people don’t like reality. No one likes to be reminded of the truth.

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Diary entry, September 19th 2018:
Today I had to report a man who sent me child pornography. That can’t be reperformed. No one wants to read that. Keep it comical.


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Coping mechanisms and survival strategies can shatter and fail.

Say the following with me. Experience each word as a knife. Let it lose its meaning.

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Will it ever be just a sound?

Have you ever gone into yourself so much that you don’t even feel alive anymore? That feeling of touching your skin but not experiencing the sensation on the area you were touching as if you were touching someone else or an inanimate object like a window frame or the side of a table. Perhaps I was touching someone else. Or they were. It was always hard to tell which one of us was which. The brain gets confused when you touch the in-between. Or the already dead. Do we even have a nervous system? I have long stopped experiencing normal sensations. I only experience aftershocks. An aftershock can appear on my face as a smile. Or a grimace. It can appear as me holding a glass and drinking from it. It can appear as me nodding. It can appear as (my) fingernails in my thighs. It can appear in my breathing as my lungs fill up with rumour. g a s p s . A death rattle. It is not yet clear which one of us has been taken out. Only one can survive. People keep telling me I need to change the way in which I take compliments. Compliments not for me but for the idea of a woman and the synthetic fibres and the molded plasm and the lenses and the inherited calves shoved into polyvinyl chloride is anything ever really for me (everything aside) waiting for an intervention waiting for the plug to be pulled but the clock ticks on and on and on and the embarrassment of begging is never lessened and the sadists look on and you ask me why I am how I am and the sadists look on watching forever from their advantage point from their firing range and you see this is what is speeding through me horniness does not exist here it is just mania skinning as sexual intercourse salty wound meeting salty wound should have had a doll made actually there was once a doll with poseable limbs and the sadists look on premium content on dark web searches jizz in wig body in coffin and we are gathered here today to put to rest the nauseating idea of s*e

I will listen to your silence when you start listening to mine.

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Splitting - the final performance, 2018. Delivered live online via AdultWork.com and Periscope.





Buy the transcript of the performance via my online shop. Strict print run of 5. If you are interested in reperforming this script, please email me.


Excerpt from the video documentation of Splitting. Buy the full video (2 hours 47 minutes) of the performance via my online shop.